Home I'll Never Be

by October Evans

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This song is a somewhat politically-themed alternative acoustic/folk song, and about my struggles as a trans woman on the road trying to break free from a broken and corrupt capitalistic system, a oligarchy-controlled Amerika and to start fresh somewhere else, after living through so much over the years and about overcoming darkness in very intense and dark political times in America.

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[Verse 1]:
Everywhere I go, memories that never fade
Strangers I had those late night diner conversations with
Passing through from Vermont to L.A.
We’re just going our own ways on the road so restless
Songs no one really listens to
Poetry that would have spoken to you
Films no one watches anymore that could’ve changed your worldviews
The art we created that may never break through

[Chorus]:
On the road, home I’ll never be
Their eyes can’t see the damage they’re unleashing
Forever wars rage on as I drive across Amerika
Home I’ll never be until we’re all free

[Verse 2]:
I play a guitar on a dark stage
Releasing my creative Post Traumatic rage
Standing somewhere on a street corner
I’m fucking for money, smoking away the pain of missing her
Hotel rooms and couches I’ve slept on trying not to come apart
Truths written on the walls I memorized by heart
They walk around enslaved in corporate bondage to the Great Pretenders
When they wake up, I hope they’ll remember to overthrow the government so tyrannical

[Chorus]

[Bridge]:
I’m going everywhere, anywhere, somewhere and nowhere
Home I’ll never be
I’m wanderlust, aimless across Amerika
Home I’ll never be
I’m the last of the Revolution
Home I’ll never be because you took everything away from me

[Chorus] x2

[Outro Verse]:
So, as I write my final poem under the stars
I look back at all the places that I’ve been
Counting the lines on my face and covering up my scars in tattoos
Stories of my life and heart I wear on my inked sleeves to share with you
Gone forever from this country as they brainwash you all
I’m gonna get out before they build their transphobic, xenophobic and racist walls
Home I’ll never be
Home I’ll never be
Home I’ll never be
Home I’ll never be

[ENDS]

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released September 6, 2019
Lyrics by October Rain Evans
Music by October Rain Evans, Lily Taylor and Amy Wilder
Recorded, Mixed, Mastered and Produced by Ryan Cohen, Robot and October Rain Evans at Robot Dog Studio and Chiaroscuro Music Studios
Deaf Grrrl Music/Trans Mad Genius Lyrics/sadistsateme.songwriting [ASCAP]
© ℗ 1999-2020 October Evans, Chiaroscuro Music Studios, Deaf Grrrl Music, Robot Dog Studio. All Rights Reserved.

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October Evans Fair Haven, Vermont

A Deaf non-binary/trans musician, singer-songwriter, multi-instrumentalist and solo artist from Vermont. Multi-genre crossover alternative music.

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